Jesus asks a haunting question to Philip, one of the disciples, in John 14:9a, “Have I been with you all this time, Philip, and yet you still don’t know who I am?”
Jesus goes on to say in the very least Philip should know who He is because of the works he has seen Him do. Philip had been with Jesus around three years at this point but apparently had started doubting that He was the Son of God. We know the Jews, Jesus’s brothers, and some of the disciples did not understand if He was the Messiah, then why not take over the kingdom with power. They could not reconcile His humble, servant behavior with who they thought the Messiah ought to be.
Can you imagine how Jesus felt when Philip said, “Lord show us the Father, and we will be satisfied.” (John 14:8). How many times did Jesus have to show them who He was and especially on this night. He knew they would all betray Him, but He kept on teaching to the very end.
Sadly, Jesus hears the same from His children today. It may not be the exact words of Philip, but it is the same statement. When we do not trust Jesus and fail to believe in His sufficiency, it is as if we are asking Him to show us who He is again. It’s like He feels our betrayal and asks us the same haunting question that He asked Philip, “Have you been so long with me and still don’t know who I am?”
But with Jesus the end never comes on such a down note. The truth is that even when we fail Him, He never fails us. When we have a periods of not trusting Him, the Holy Spirit woos us back to confession and repentance; after which we receive God’s never-ending forgiveness.
Today is a good day for us to examine our hearts and remember who Jesus is, yesterday, today, and forever. Pray to be led by the Holy Spirit to confess and repent, and you will receive the forgiveness God offers in the goodness of His heart.